Don't I wish. But it IS raining. I love rain. The smell, the way it keeps me from boiling in the usual Texas heat, the sound it makes when it hits the roof. There is no purpose behind this post; I just happen to be laying down for a nap (doing nothing is exhausting) and the sound made me happy.
So, what's been going on in my life? Well, shockingly, I've been talking to someone for a little while and it's almost disturbing how easy the conversation flows. Why am I posting about it? Naturally, so I can look back in a week or a month and say, "Lindsay, you're dumb. It was all a fluke." That isn't to say that my hopes are up because I have no interest in dating anyone. Still, a new friend is always nice and I can't deny that I have a crush. It'll go away, though. They always do. Pessimism for the win!
Now for the part that makes me really uncomfortable. He likes me. A lot. Maybe too much. It makes me nervous. Why? Because his feelings seem to be in hyper-drive and I'm not ready for that. It's one of those if-we-had-met-at-a-different-point-in-my-life-things-could-have-been-different kind of situations. I have too much on my mind right now and I don't need to add to it.
This post is schizophrenic. A crush is exciting and the attention is nice, but if I could rewind time, I wouldn't have acknowledged him. It's just not the right time. Sigh.
Despite all of that, it's raining, and I will continue to be happy about that. Thank you, Mother Nature; you fabulous, unpredictable bitch.
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